Total Freedom

Some Krishnamurti insights
Reflective of all the questions and challenges I see friends around me profoundly experiencing right now....including me.

We, who are facing the beautiful beastly creature that is truthful transformation, are completely in-tune with all things celestial at this time on the planet.
Know that you are in the right place.  Exactly where you should be.

From TOTAL FREEDOM - The Essential Krishnamurti
(thanks to dear Jesse for suggesting this to me)

To Be A True Human Being:  
What we call happiness or ecstasy is, to me, creative thinking. 
And creative thinking is the infinite movement of thought, emotion, and action.
That is, when thought, which is emotion, which is action itself, is unimpending in its movement, is not compelled or influenced or bound by and idea, and does not proceed from the background of tradition or habit, then that movement is creative.

Do you want to escape from suffering, or to be free from it? 
If you merely want to escape, then a pill, a belief, an explanation, an amusement, may "help", with the inevitable consequences of dependence, fear, and so on. 
But if you wish to be free from sorrow, you must stop running away and be aware of it without judgment, without choice; you must observe it, learn about it, know all the intimate intricacies of it.
Then you will not be frightened of it, and there will no longer be the prison of self-pity.

Love Can only come into being when there is total self-abandonment.
Love is something this is new, fresh, alive. It has no yesterday and no tomorrow.
It is beyond the turmoil of thought. It is only the innocent mind which knows what love is, and the innocent mind can live in the world, which is not innocent. 
To find this extraordinary thing which man has sought endlessly through sacrifice, through worship, through relationship, through sex, through every form of pleasure and pain, is only possible when thought comes to understand itself and comes naturally to an end. 
Then love has no opposite, then love has no conflict.
But you dont know how to come to this extraordinary fount, so what do you do?
If you dont know what to do, you do absolutely nothing, dont you? Absolutely nothing. 
Then inwardly you are completely silent.  Do you understand what that means?
It means that you are not seeking, not wanting, not pursuing; there is no center at all.  
Then there is love.


Dark Days

Moving towards becoming includes both light and dark.
I dip in and out of these states rapidly.
Testing the extreme waters of this yin/yan way.

It is exhausting and exhilarating all at once.
It is a loss of self while at the same time a gaining of self.
Fear facing. Strong wind in the face. Brilliant sun in the eyes.
Calm water cure.


Make you laugh Make you cry

Have you experienced the Double Rainbow sensation?
Was it anything like this guy's experience?
I laughed I cried and I laughed again.
We are all brimming with emotion, asking the big question:
What does it mean?


It came & went

"The blacker the night, the more brilliant the sunrise."

Snippets of Hurricane Earl from my POV.

Hunkered down at home alone and had an emotional hurricane of my own.
Left both the front and back door open so the wind could whip thru the house. 
Cleanse out dreary energy to make space for fresh energy.

Power down.  Candle lit dinner.  A night walk through a blackened city.

This morning I swept the leaves out of the hall and back room.
Picked up the pieces. And stepped out into a cool, bright, clear day.  
A wander thru Point Pleasant Park lead me to a patch of young maple shoots flashing their glistening silver backsides.

Like the ruins I was run down but secure in my place.  Full of character and potential and history and alive with regeneration.

Stripped bare, standing tall, among a camas blue sky.


Eye of the storm

While waiting for pending storm the only thing left to do is go to the beach and get churned around for a few hours.
Wind swept and wave lashed.
Overcooked and boggie boarded out.
Was a glorious day but has left me a emotionally beached.
Photo (taken by Andrea D) of me looking so serious.  I  just had sand in my eye.

Current emotional condition: unattractively pixelated and over analyzed


RayBan Bliss

As the heat wave continues I sink into a sweaty delirium.
Everything seems surreal and stagnant.

Slept on the backyard porch last night.

My best friend right now is this old metal rose colored Electrohome fan.
She is a beaut...but dont get to close....she could take a piece out of you!

The dogs are motionless, soggy wet noodles in the back yard.
Apparently dirt is cool and inviting.
Tonight we will all go jump in a lake.

This is the coolest use of RayBan Sunglasses I have ever seen: